Saddest most uneventful Christmas Eve in over a decade. f*** u all.
Im actually starving right now since I cannot afford to buy anything and I have run out of almost everything. I havent bought food for 3 weeks and I ave even come to think of eating grass to survive. I cannot even afford potatoes or milk. I want to buy one potato with the ten cents from returning a bottle but I am scared its not enough. I am having heart problems from starvation and sleeplessness, my stomach growls at night. I have nobody to turn to. I feel like either I will die or I have to kill myself. I cannot go on. I have a salary but bills and taxes are so high I become indepted and I have nothing left for food.
I’ve been an e***** for four years. I can’t look at a man without feeling such visceral disgust. I really hate this but the money is so good. I have my own house and car and I’ve put myself through school with no loans and am in pharmacy school now, still no loans. I’m just so tired.
