I did love you, and I still do; that’s why it hurt for so long. That’s why I tried repeatedly to reach out to you. I asked several times how you were doing and if you were okay.

I don’t like hurting people, and I’m truly sorry for what I did. I can’t change the past, but I can move forward and do my best. It’s completely my fault—I know that, and everyone else does too. I was really out of line, and I hurt my friends and family. That was the beginning of my downward spiral.

I’m currently working on three years of sobriety from alcohol and over a month sober from weed. I’m not engaging in harmful behaviors anymore. I’m managing my life now, though I still struggle with anger, which I plan to address when I start therapy.