I have been married 15 years to a woman that I have never been attracted to physically or mentally. I was 28 and a virgin, lets just say I was a little desperate. I have such bad abandonment issues that I have not been able to leave her because I am afraid I will never find anyone else who will love me as much as her, even though sometimes I get sick to my stomach to think of lying with her or listen to her as she talks like a 12 year old. Other women find me attractive, but if I leave her now I will be broke without a job in this economy even though I’m the one running the business now. If I don’t get laid by someone I’m actually attracted to I might die.