I wish I could be beautiful. I want to wear makeup but my allergies are so bad that I can’t. Nothing I can wear will flatter my hideous body. Short, flat chested, big hipped, and overweight with all the extra weight going to my waist, hips, b*** and an awful ugly spare tire. I have bad teeth and I’m missing a few, some noticeable. I have a lazy eye that I can’t always keep focused. I have to constantly breathe out of my mouth due to my allergies and smaller-than-average nasal passages, another ugly unattractive trait. Not to mention I’m soft spoken, afraid, and generally have no self confidence.

The worst part? I’m a 30 year old woman. I went through a period of several years after high school where I lost weight and felt better about myself… but that’s all over now. I’m back to the days of self loathing. I know I’m the only one that can change anything but I don’t even know where to start.