It is perfectly ok to m*********. I swear The Lord you may worship has better things to do than keep score of the billions of people touching themselves. Make peace with it so you can stop hyper focusing on if you should when you should what happens when you do and what on earth will happen in the next world if you do!!
I’m a 48 yr old woman. My mom was an ordained minister. She burned it into our heads that if we did it, there would be no blessing, our skin would be mottled with acne, our grades would suffer, we would have no friends. There would be no success in our lives financially or otherwise. No one would love is enough to marry us. So I gave it a year, I devoted a year to living pure. I didn’t touch myself, I read my bible daily, I did not lie. And it got me nowhere. My skin still broke out, I still wasn’t the most popular kid, my grades weren’t the best. After that year I figured out it’s just a control scam.
Once I realized that it didn’t matter at All if I masturbated.
I buckled down on school work, I got good grades. My skin eventually cleared up with some retin a. I figured out the social thing and was perfectly fine. I got myself into college and graduated deans list. I went on to be successful financially. I married the love of my life 22 yrs ago and have 2 delightful kids. And through it all, yes…I masturbated!! There is no guarantee of ‘heaven’, no one can swear to its existence. Live your life now as a good person. On another. Note, my mom now lives a sad life of depression and constant pain from back problems. No amount of prayer or faith in 15 yrs has made her better. I hate to see her like that. She sends money she doesn’t have to televangelists hoping at some point The Lord will finally listen to her plea for help…but it never happens. According to her guidelines, I should be living a miserable life, but I’m not. She has no answer as to why my life has gone so well. What an awful way to live.