LAST WEEK:
I basically told my boyfriend i don care if he ends our relationship or not. He mentally & physically exhausting but ive secretly been in therapy working on my self worth & how to move on if he wants to break up with me. I dont have the energy anymore to find ways to get him to do bare minimum or get him to be nice to me. (Like I said i working on my self worth & understand these things men do when they actually love an respect you. This should NOT be my job) So i put everything in his hand and I feel effing amazing!!!!!! If he wants to work on it wonderful cool great stupendous otherwise I actually cannot wait until he breaks up with me if he isnt going to treat me right !!

UPDATE:
I haven’t spoke to him or texted him since this last message and he called but i missed it so he sent a follow up text. Turns out he wants to work on things. No idea what he was doing in the meant time.. Idk how I feel about this since it opens up the opportunity for me to go right back to my old habits that got me in the situation in the first place. I was lowkey expecting he would just not ever respond again and I could go find me a nice Asian man.

But I’m willing to hear what he has to say and I’m still in therapy working on how not to go back to those old ways. He’s so jacked up though that he’s going to need therapy so fix his lil self. Otherwise idk what God he serves that can fix that poor man but whatever I got a lil time before Spring Break start.

This should be interesting. I’ll update yall