if he only knew how much I love him. I hear him that lovely voice and crave him so close yet so far. what am I to do? what does he want a woman or man or child to entertain? why place me in this compromising situation. how I want to suicide right now. I am a healthy s******* interested woman being denied s***** pleasures and desires being met and I don’t understand why. I am going insane with these cult rules others want . who am i ? going schizophrenic and then who will care for me when I am crazy due to these games and rules? why do people hate me and why do people think I am a b**** when my heart is so pure and my love so real and there is no one more unbitchy then me. I love him.
