Ive then with my highschool sweetheart on and off for the last four and a half years. everything in the beginning was amazing nobody could match the love

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Ive then with my highschool sweetheart on and off for the last four and a half years. everything in the beginning was amazing nobody could match the love and happiness we felt towards eachother. I honestly dont know where it went wrong he made some new friends(I had been in love one other time to a guy named kyler) and now jeff(my current love) was besties with kylers ex loser friends who are druggies, thieves, liars, freeloaders they made jeff pay for everything on his bday even stole from him when they were homeless and jeff let them move in. so jeff started hanging out with them and I started hanging out with amber she was the same way but I was to blind to see it. Jeff would get jealous of my friendz guy or female didn’t matter, it embarrassed me I wanted to
show him off not.him trying fighting everyone cuz they looked in my direction. But instead of making it better I just stopped taking him with me to parties and
kickbacks. Then to make it worse I developed a wondering eye idk why jeff is hands down the best s** ive ever had but I just liked being reminded that I was physically appealing by others. I let that conniving two faced free loader amber move.in but jeff stood.by me through my.party phase, when I lost my grandmother, everything. idk everytime were apart I fall back in love with him and my heart just yearns for his but.when ever we live together its hell. I think.its because.ive never actually given us a real chance.im.so.focused.on us failing.that I get in the way.and doom us but idk now our fights are.so horrible that we both walk away with.broken hearts and a destroyed house. So our last fight I got kinda hurt and was willing to sale my soul to the devil to get outta that situation and I have an amazing friend who said hell help under one.condition jeff could never.know.where I lived but.I couldn’t do.it i.love.him so much or.is it im.just so.attached it hurts well long story short my friend was over we were
talking about.my broken.car and my ex showed up for.our date we had.planned. I got scared and.didnt.know.what to do do.i.let.my friend know I betrayed the.one thing.he asked.me.not.to do.I let my exa
I betrayed him and let my ect know.where.I lived or let my example know.I borrowed a grip off money to get away from him? So what did I do my brilliant mind blames.my ex and says hes stalking me :/ how could I so easily everytime get rid.of.the only person who has been there for.me I think.its cuz we all get attached, familiar, used to . . .that one person .
Do I beg for.my ex back
Or try moving.on theres this guy that adores me and wants.to treat me amazing but idk
~Am

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