I'm mad that my dad died. He died when I was 16 and left me to be the breadwinner when he passed. He died of an aortic disection, he was a type 1 diabetic

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I’m mad that my dad died. He died when I was 16 and left me to be the breadwinner when he passed. He died of an aortic disection, he was a type 1 diabetic with kidney failure that refused to take care of himself. He used to be a heavy drinker when I was very little, hardly ever tested or dosed for his blood sugar correctly, refused cardiac rehab after his first heart attack, and never wanted to take his meds.

Ever since he died I’ve been responsible for my family’s health, finances, bills, whatever. I’ve kinda always been doing it since I started working at 14 but it didn’t all fall on me til he died.

I remember in March 2022 I was in the middle of dyeing my hair when the faucet of my bathroom sink broke off and sprayed hot water everywhere. The bathroom was flooded (later a plumber uncovered there was severe water damage), I was standing there desperately trying to turn it off and having to run all the way down the the back of the basement to shut off the water. I remember just sitting against the doorframe, looking at the flood, then back to his ashes box, and saying “You know you could’ve fixed this, right?”. I drove down to the Loves Travel Stop about 30 minutes out to shower there.

tl;dr I’m upset that my dad died because it left me as the man of the house before I was even an adult and I never got to have a good relationship with him.

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I don’t really have any place other to turn to than an anonymous confession site. I’m 32f, I’ve started to have fantasies about dogs and being mounted. No real place to safely talk about it, and not sure how to event process why I think about just. Just feel mostly embarrassed and alone.

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