it kind of dawned on me that i really f****** hate myself and i’m completely alone. no one would care if i died. that being said, i’m not ready to just end it all. that would mean giving up on myself, every version of myself i’ve been, and every person i could be. i want to stop letting life happen to me and just start living it. i want to be better. also why are a lot of these weirdly s***** g*******