There is nothing left for me in life. I fucked up. I fucked up so bad, I can't even wrap my mind around it. Here is what I have left in my life basically, - Simply Confess

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There is nothing left for me in life.

I fucked up. I fucked up so bad, I can’t even wrap my mind around it.

Here is what I have left in my life basically, to look forward to:

Marijuana, which I don’t even really enjoy or like that much
Survival nutrients, my system can’t stay hydrated so I have to like specifically keep track and take extra salt, sugar, fluids and stuff
P***

That’s it. Anything else I would ever try to do, there just isn’t any room for me to do it anymore, because you have to compete, but I am injured as f*** and even if I got rehabbed, I won’t ever be able to do it like the younger people.

It’s like I finally get better, show up to the workout gym and walk up to the pull-up bar, I step up to the bar and then some 10 year old monkey kid swings by and karate 16-kicks my head and I fall to the ground.

By the time I get up and try to get to the bar again, someone does a 50 foot wind up flying karate kick to my back and hurts my already injured left lower back region. Specifically they targeted my already wounded portion to make it even more injured and even more pain and suffering.

By the time I get up from that, I got no more juice left.

Watching you people, takes the wind out of my sails completely.

But the thing is, you’re f****** everywhere. I can’t go anywhere, without running into you people. And it’s going to be that way, for as long as I live. You’re all younger than me, you’re going to outlive me, there will never be a time when I am free from you people.

It’s like I finally get started with something, someone is like OMFOFMOGJOIDSJFOAIFJOAISJDOADSIJ WAT R U DOING ASLDKJASDLKJFGKLJLKJLKGJSDFKLDKJSL then they see, and then they quickly run off with it and do whatever they have to, to completely take the wind out of my sails.

They weren’t even genuinely interested in doing the thing I was doing, they just wanted to cortically enjoy taking the wind out of an already broken man’s sails. Because to them, that IS the whole thing. Hurting people. Watching the spasms occur in their body. There is nothing more exciting to you young people than destruction. The bigger, the older, the more “legendary”, whatever the f***, the “bigger” the more you insatiably just can’t get enough of it. You just want to go around and blow things up for fun. The more important it is to people historically, the more you want to destroy it, completely.

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