Thats fine. I was somewhat confused what it was and what we were meant to do, i constantly felt i didnt belong and felt like i was intruding in some way. But it meant a lot to me. I know i was stupid and trash a lot of the time. And honestly i was putting on a character when i got in, what i felt like what the social expectations were. I think ive come to understand your perspective more with time and it makes sense to me. It wasnt just some fun quirky thing for me. It would also be something id wanna do for the rest of my life and i guess id have to find people here to do that. And i see why you dont pay much attention to that, why you would not waste your efforts like that. I didnt want you to waste your efforts on me. Its just that i miss how things used to be there. I guess i will not be really the kind of person you want to encourage people to be and i can see why youd want that. Im sorry for wasting your energy. For what its worth, at the time i saved a lot of what you said. Or maybe its not worth anything. Either way its my responsibility of course.