I miss you. I wish you are more direct with me. I want to understand you and know where you are coming from, but i never feel good enough and always end up hurt when you reject what i share with you, and i do that from my heart. And i dont even blame you. You want depth. And now that things are different you have become sour. I just still dont understand what im supposed to do, what you want or wanted from me and i would seek too much validation from you. Not so much anymore. I was really heartbroken and i dont even blame you or think you will understand. I dont know a lot of people like you and who understand me and support me the way you do but i have enough in my life to support myself. It doesnt matter. You deserve someone better, kinder than me anyway who is also average-pretty or prettier. Its not gonna be good for your well being to just want someone pretty who doesnt even know what you want or understand how you think. And i deserve someone who lives near me and i can hold. Ive always listened to you and taken your words to heart, i was just too shy to say anything, i was overwhelmed. I wish my heart wasnt so worn out at this point so i could love him better. I left the door open so many times, i dont know what else i can do. I dont actually feel that comfortable with romance or doing other things, and i guess that makes me superficial but really i just try to get you not to choose me. Im gonna disappoint you anyways. Please take care of yourself.