I went out last night with a new friend. It was the first time I met with her, she asked if I wanted to go to a edm concert as none of her friends were

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I went out last night with a new friend. It was the first time I met with her, she asked if I wanted to go to a edm concert as none of her friends were interested and saw i liked EDM. I said yes and so we went. We saw the person she wanted to see it was a good concert. I am 34 and 8 months out of my last long term relationship. I am also a pretty staunch radical feminist who no longer wears makeup or shaves. I like to look nice and put together though and I wear comfortable clothes that are appropriate. Well the club we went to somehow I have never been too and it was frequented by all sorts but it was a pretty young crowd. My friend was about my age but she is asian and petite. Truth is I have been called overweight and put on diets since I was 7 and have spent most of my life on a diet to keep in the ‘normal’ weight range. I finally stopped that about a year ago after losing a bunch of weight on Noom and realized it wasn’t healthy. Well now I’ve been seeing a dietician who helped me see I have eating disorder from all this restriction from dieting which is why I binge and feel out of control around certain foods. BUT HERE IS MY CONFESSION. I HATE BEING FAT. I have only gained about 30 lbs but I still see how everyone thinks less of me. 4 guys hit on my friend and no single guy talked to me or even looked at me. One of the guys talking to her introduced himself to me because she told him too and he gave me a FAKE NAME. LIKE I EVEN GAVE A S*** ABOUT HIM NO BUT IM SO DISGUSTING NOW APPARENTLY HE DID NOT WANT ME TO KNOW HIS NAME. I didn’t go out looking for guys no but I’m so f****** insecure right now. I know everyone thinks I’m a f****** loser fat whale and they can’t see what’s really going on from the outside but I’m fixing my relationship with food so its healthy and I am advised not to focus on my weight right now. But I know how people think about fat people. No one who is naturally thin can understand the perspective of someone who has been restricting for over 20 years. The amount of time I’ve spent logging calories, workouts, meal planning… I could have got a PHD for the brain power I put into that s***. I was so strong, powerlifting, weight lifting, crossfit blah blah, everytime I think about going to lift weights again all I can remember is how I did it to look good and lose weight and I disgust myself. I told my old friend this and she said basically thats how she felt when she used to go out with me, that men would be throwing themselves at me because I was the more attractive friend. I told her I don’t remem

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BelleHoney smith play list says it all dude get the message and move on unfollow her on Spotify Kei and as for the cocky post you re posted she is not gonna need you. She don’t need you a lying two
Faced cheater I suggest you move on once and for all and take that post back down cos she’s done with you leave her be now she’s unfollowed u on things so do the same and block her and move on

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