Struggle. Small post.

Transgenders. Struggle. I wish I was healthier, mentally, emotionally.. I wish I had gotten help when I was growing up. I wish I hadn’t kept assuming that things were a certain way, when they really weren’t… but I just chose to ignore all of the warning signs, thinking it just couldn’t be any other way… and then I wasted time… and my health got worse… and I am struggling right now.

It was all so easy, to live a good, decent, healthy life, and I didn’t do it. I was running after the Rainbow, but you can’t ever catch the f****** Rainbow man. You have to start where you are basically. Just the practical things. Do you work? Do you like your work? Do you enjoy being around people? If not, why? What can you do to become more comfortable? Why live in fear and anxiety? You can overcome these things, why are you doing it?

I was putting so much pressure onto myself throughout my life it was terrible… but it was what I thought I had to do… but it was ignorance… it was stupidity…