I think about killing myself every day.

I have a good home, and good friends, but I struggle to find any sort of motivation or a reason to keep going. My parents, teachers, therapist, and friends, all say I’m incredibly intelligent, but I cannot keep up in school or keep up with other people, in conversation or in general.

I feel distant from people and disconnected from the world, and I fear I will never feel like I belong. My anxiety and OCD make things much worse. I am a failure in everything I do, and I am disgusted with who I am.

I want someone to notice, but I’m scared they’ll run from me when they find out.