I don’t know if I can do this. I dated B for two years, we had a wonderful relationship. I’ve known B for 4 years. We’re best friends and I trust him with everything.
For me, he’s my soulmate.
But we broke up three ish months ago. And he told me that he wanted to focus on college, and maybe afterwards we can try again. He tells me he still loves me, romantically, and very deeply.
But it hurts me so much. So f****** much.
My brain is literally melting from the everyday pain.
One day it’s like he can’t stop talking to me and we’re so close again. The next day it’s like I don’t even exist.
Some days he acts so cold to me and barely acknowledges me.
The next day he’s constantly talking to me.
When we hang out, it’s like we’re close and friends truly. But outside of that it’s like we’re two nations away.
He’s fine. He’s fine. He isn’t struggling at all. And it’s obvious.
Meanwhile, my grades have dropped, my mental health has declined, and I am psychically getting sick. I don’t know if I can do this.
I dont even think he wants to date ever again. But like would he tell me that? No.
Maybe it’s my curse to forever be in love with someone who most likely doesn’t care about me.
