chronic pain it came again. the feeling of wanting to stop existing. I held the cutter on my wrist. I wanted to slash it all at once. end my misery all at

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chronic pain

it came again. the feeling of wanting to stop existing. I held the cutter on my wrist. I wanted to slash it all at once. end my misery all at once. to stop the pain. to stop living my petty life. to stop feeling scared. to stop feeling all the negative emotions even if it will also stop the positive ones. I just wish I die in my sleep or someone accidentally kills me. or i get into an accident and die from hemorrhage or drown or choke. I envy those who die in their sleep.i envy those who died from an accident. I envy babies who died early because they were not able to feel the pain that these dreadful world is full of. I am a disappointment. I never really put into action the things that I am thinking of. The things that I want will never happen because I am useless, dumb, stupid, and pitiful. I am only full of talking but i always fail on what I do. I am talentless, ugly, dumb pig who only sits and procrastinates all day and eat all the food and waste all my parents money. I cant even produce my own money in this age i am really sososo useless. why cant i just die already. i think i cant make it in college. im so slow i will only get my patient to die. i am so poor in skills and explaining myself. pls just kill me just bring out the life in me and exchange it with a more deserving children with cancer.

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