Once my boyfriend breaks up with me I’m going to kill myself. It’s not something that he knows or is aware of in any form. He was the only thing in my life keeping my head up but now he doesn’t seem happy anymore and I know it will happen soon. Either he will leave me or cheat on me and when that happens, I’m going to pack everything in my car, take an entire bottle of ibuprofen and drink as much liquor as I can get my hands on. I’m going to park somewhere where not many people go and just go to sleep. I will leave a note on my dashboard saying that my father has the rights to my lockbox but may everything else be donated. I don’t want to live anymore and I haven’t for a very long time. I’ve attempted several times in the past including trying to shoot myself. The gun wouldn’t go off. I have nothing and no one to live for anymore.
