I have this tendency to fall in love really quickly and put the other person the the pedestal. I push them to commit quickly due to my own insecurities. But when they really do and they love me enough to stay long enough until the initial infatuation wears out, I finally start to see their true self, the side that I actually don’t like. Then I stop loving them.
Right now I’m dating this nice guy. I can see I am doing the same cycle again. I don’t want to do that anymore. It’s toxic. I need to take things really really really slow, and calm my own insecurities myself. I want a healthy, happy and stable relationship.
