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My husband has tried to r*** me multiple times in my sleep. He’s blamed the most recent time on alcohol but there were other times he tried to do so sober. I can’t even admit this to my therapist. He pays all my bills and I don’t have the money to divorce him so I’m stuck with him. The most damning thing of all is that I genuinely love him and he loves me back. He’s been sober and hasn’t messed with me for months, but I still don’t trust him completely and I don’t think I ever will. I’m trying to recover all in my own but it’s so difficult. It’s like I hear a ticking in the back of my head counting down to the next time his desire is going to overtake him. He’s sorry for what he did but he’s also tired of me being traumatized from it. Well buddy I’m tired of being traumatized too! I keep going over all the times he’s tried to mess with me in my sleep in my mind not out of desire to relive those events but because my mind is stuck in that spiral and I don’t know how to get it out. Maybe this will help. Thank you for hosting this website. You are a blessing.

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