I have an addiction to the Internet dating sites and live out fantasies online of being a pimp living the high life of the dark underworld. While doing this I have never physically gone through with any of what I have written and never would. Online I live out different characters I have created from pimps to crossdressers. Having this addiction I have been unable to tell anyone around me due to the obscenity of the suggestions and adds I’ve posted. Last night I seriously felt like I was awoken from sleepwalking after being indulged in my phone for hours and hours before receiving a text saying police will soon contact me. I now feel dreadful realizing what I’ve posted and done online and I’m not sure if this will ruin my life. One good thing that has come of it is how much it has shook me up and I know and vow to never return to that dark place. I love my real life even though it has been stressful lately and in my clear state of mind would never intensionally do anything to jeopardize my relationship. Never again will I be in that dark place though now I have to wait and see what the consequences will be. I pray to my god that nobody else will suffer for my biggest regrettable sin.
