I got angry this morning because his mom spilled haldi all over the kitchen. Well i got angry because i cant be angry on her, she is old. I got angry because i just deep cleaned the kitchen last night. I got angry and fired up at my husband because we have no option than to keep his parents becausr they are old but i feel like a maid here. Cleaning the bathroom, keeping the house clean. If i would be alone without his parents i wouldn’t have to do all this extra work. I would be deep cleaning once a week and my house will still look clean as fuch but here i am feeling lile people taking advantage of me. I am actually not angry but dissappointed at myself, at my life, where i have brought myself. I don’t want to take all this pressure, i can’t stand untidyness or anything dirty, i feel like a house should be clean to feel like home but his parents do not understand that. I feel like they do not give a f*** that i am cleaning it and also its their responsibility ad well to keep it clean and tidy, i brush their sandals so that the floor of the house remain clean. Still the house doesn’t stay clean though we remain indoor only and wr stay in aprtment. I mean what is wrong man. I am so frustrated, this is not the life that i wished for. I am doing this because this is my house why dont they also behave the way that its their house as well. I mean i cant think of having a chilf because of his parents becausr they will drive me crazy and i dont want to be angry or frustrated because of someone else but i feel like people are taking advantage of me. I can’t even keep the house as they keep it because it only makes my mood off and depressed. I like clean house.
I am so fruatrated, i know its just haldi stain but i dont want to do it, i just did last night qnd its making me feel miserablr and helpless cause i am the one to do it, i’ll have to do it anyway.