I realized today how ugly I am. How overweight I am, how crooked my teeth are, how bad my complexion is. I don’t know why he finds me attractive. He says I’m beautiful just the way I am, but I don’t feel beautiful. Why can’t I be one of those women that takes the time to be beautiful? Why does it have to feel like such a chore to me? Putting on makeup, doing my hair, lotioning, conditioning, etc. etc. I guess I feel like none of it would do any good in the end anyway. I’ll still be ugly.