I think I’m finally ready to love again. I left a very controlling person in December and it’s now April. I talked with an old friend a few days ago and he just makes me feel so loved. The problem is that he’s polyamorous, and he doesn’t believe in marriage. I would love to marry this guy, but I’m willing to do it on his terms. He’s not talking to me all that much right now, so I’m starting to feel like this might just be a b********* every now and again when he feels like he needs it. He’s saying though that he’s very awkward and feels safe with me but I’m not sure how I should talk to him without scaring him away. I think he might be scared to lose me as a friend because he’s saying that he just wants to first and foremost, friends before we do anything more serious. He’s also very straight with me about his passions and about how he’s protecting himself every time he has s** or does anything else with another person.
Or maybe it’s just my ovaries telling me to have kids right now, I don’t know.