I self harmed for the first time in two years last night.
It made me feel better, and I don’t really feel guilty about it. But what’s strange is, I was feeling okay this past week. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and all things considered I wasn’t in the worst state. But yesterday, for no reason at all, I started feeling worse again, and then I just got the urge, and I just… did it.
But, why? If I was feeling better, and I haven’t self harmed in over two years, why did I do it? I don’t know. I’m not sure what came over me.
It just doesn’t make sense.
