Worst day in a long time today. Nothing to do with people, or loss, of sadness, or out of my mind over a woman, but the kind of day where it's like the

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Worst day in a long time today.

Nothing to do with people, or loss, of sadness, or out of my mind over a woman, but the kind of day where it’s like the straw that broke the camel’s back for me, and I feel I need to maybe move on and change direction “professionally”. It was a double whammy in one day which adds to a string of not very good things, directions, trajectories, that just… Well it s****. I wish Taylor Swift would hire me as a song writer or something. Not that I’m a Taylor Swift fan or anything, just I think if I was driven enough, motivated to actually do something, I could contribute good things. I don’t know why her, I wouldn’t work with other big artists. It wouldn’t be about that for me. I don’t think, but who knows? Wave some money in my face and I might be saying Calgon Take Me Away. I don’t know though. I’m stupid that way. I would be the dummy not selling out, just because… I’m not a sell out. As it is now, I like playing my my favorite riffs from my favorite bands which could be anyone Rock. Literally anyone. I’m a fan. I like it all. I appreciate it. So I play my favorite s*** from other people. I get it measure out of that. Better than a video game. But theres nothing real goal behind it. I just do it with no expectations.

It’s not me in my early mid 20’s, having encounters with past things from 10-15 years prior, some of it from 20, what I consider deep, first ever experience deep. WAAAAAY back, and nothing happens. We both know it, we are both looking at each other, and neither of us is doing anything BUT there is something there. I see it. I’m super she sees it (2 different girls actually) me with no real direction, and no actual plan, and at a standstil theses things have slipped out of my hands at this time, rare things, deep things, and all it did was convince me that it didn’t matter there will be a next time, obviously. These things are hitting me then. So what do I do? I buy Guitar Word Presents Alternative Guitar, issue 1 with Cobain on the cover. Summer 94? To read. But it had to cool transcriptions in that issue. Pearl Jam, Even Flow, Nirvana, Heart Snapped Box, STP Plush, I think Smashing Pumpkins, Today? Something else. I learned huge chunks of all

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My girlfriend is rather reckless in protecting her privacy. She constantly walks out on the balcony totally nu.de. She walks around na.ked and pauses in front of the sliding glass door. Then she steps out onto the balcony.

She says we are high enough up that no one can really see any details from the street. That might be so but there are people with high power telescopes in other buildings. They be on higher floors looking down at her, or on lower floors looking up.
There are high power cameras that take pics and video. I don’t want to see her pics on the web of her rubbing suntan lotion on her bo.obs or her sitting in the lounge chair with her legs spread open.

There lots of guys out there with telescopes and high power cameras. She even does nu,de exercises on the balcony. She says she enjoys the sunshine. i wish she wouldn’t be so exposed.