I felt like I had run headfirst into a cold hard brick wall. She was there, as she always was, typing away at her computer seemingly unaware of the way those shiny locks of hair draped so elegantly over her shoulders. Valentine’s day was tomorrow and I was not allowed to say what I had hidden in the back of my mind. My heart seemed to drop into my stomach. I could not move, or rather I did not want to. It was like being at a concert with your favorite song playing, if the power had abruptly gone out and all the musicians froze in place, while the cold wind you were ignorant of the entire time suddenly became noticeable. Something inside was empty. I felt the ocean wanting to burst from my eyes and excused myself for the day.