I can’t help but take my family seriously and they keep messing with me, knowing that I take it serious and I can’t live my f****** life. They mask everything like it’s just a little bit of fun or something. It’s so awful. I hope horrible things happen to them. I’m practically crippled and they don’t stop. All I want to do is get my life started but they just won’t stop messing with me. But since they traumatized me in my childhood, like I can’t help but start feeling out of control and then they start f****** with me and it’s like a bad dream. It’s like they bring up the trauma vibes and it’s like an ‘off switch’ in my head and I just can’t help but take literally everything they say and do to my heart like I’m in such a state of panic.

They refuse to acknowledge that childhood trauma is even a thing that can or has happened to any living human person ever.

They’re also republicans and racist.

Basically, me asking them to stop f****** with me, to them, is like a burden, because they love to do it so much how could you take this away from meee?? “It’s not a big deal.” It’s like, you morons, you don’t understand the place you have within my psyche and the importance that you hold and the fact you people traumatized me so many times, I constantly get into a state of panic and they just laugh at me and make jokes the entire time. When my half-sister enters the picture, it’s like 100x worse.

My goal in life, if I ever get better, is to become as strong and physically capable as possible, and I want to be rich too if I can, and then I don’t want to ever see or hear anything from them for as long as I live. I want to completely get them the f*** out of my life forever.

Normal people aren’t like this. Ever since I lost my job and have had some health problems, they’ve just non-stop ganged up on me.

I remember being around normal people at school and work. Nobody was secretly f****** with me to watch me slip and fall and get hurt, then laughing at me the entire way.

I basically pray and hope that they die like every single day.