I have lots of obsessive compulsive syntoms, I want to be treated I want to let things happen without worrying, I want to be able to focus, to remember things, to know if things I remember are real or did I make it up?To not cry for things that come out wrong and to be happy again. But my parents can’t afford treatment, they wouldn’t if we could. At least now I won’t have to lose my ED, nor the cutting.