I still love him. I am a gay man and he was my first love, we dated for a year and all of a sudden he told me he lost feelings. Till this day i do not know what happened. I loved him alot but he hurt me and still does even tho we do not talk at all. The worst thing about this is if he comes back now i would feel weak and take him back in. Maybe what hurts me the most is that i have no control over how the way he makes me feel. and i miss him like hell.