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I wish I never fell in love with my best friend of 11 years. Because, all I’m feeling now is pain. From him saying he only sees me as a friend to benefits, to him saying I shouldn’t feel entitled because me and him had s**, to the thoughts of me falling more for him while he goes out and fucks/dates other girls, to him saying we’re in an open relationship. I wish I could just turn off my feelings for him, but it’s not simple. I wish we could go back to being platonic friends, and me thinking he was ugly and not my type and not someone I would date, but even that’s impossible now since feelings are involved. The saddest part is that if I were to cut him out of my life to try and move on, I would be losing the only true/best friend I have. There’s nobody else I talk to everyday like I do with him—I truly have no other best friends in my life, so cutting him off from my life would be detrimental. What’s worst— being friends with someone who doesn’t feel the same way at the time to feel less lonely, or cutting off the only friend you have in your life? I’m so broken.

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Sister Marie Howorth had no right to ask me private questions about father’s death. The Toronto Catholic District School Board has verified this with me. To quote the TCDSB, “If you did not disclose to her that your father died, she should not have asked.” The TCDSB also verified that Sister Marie Howorth should not have asked me ‘prodding’ questions. Especially when she saw I was in distress. At that point, she should have stopped. As for the comment, “You wear a mask”, this was a very harmful comment to say to a student. In today’s climate, making a comment like that to a student would never fly. I feel emotionally abused by Sister Marie Howorth. I’m sick of people glorifying her and talking about how compassionate she was. I simply did not see that side of her. When I asked what the meeting was about that day, Sister Marie Howorth replied, “Oh Just Something.” This answer was an outright lie. Sister Marie asking me to reveal private details about my father’s death was not “just something.” I still feel very violated by the way Sister Marie Howorth treated me. She invaded my privacy and my grief. (Actually I don’t really grieve my father because he called my mother an ugly warthog infront of me when I was 6) I hope God did not let her into Heaven Scott Free! Sister Marie Howorth ruined my last year of high school with her psychological abuse.

F*** You Sister Marie Howorth
F*** You Judy Wright
F*** You Yvonne Kocik
F*** You Former Deputy Director of the MSSB who thought he had a right to force a grief counselling on me when he could have just made a complaint against me to stop. I would never have contacted him in the first f*****’ place! Besides, unlike his late son, I would never steal VCRs from the Honeydale Walmart!!!