I have committed my entire life to my education. I haven't gone out of my way to try and do anything else, for whatever fucking reason that is, and now

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I have committed my entire life to my education. I haven’t gone out of my way to try and do anything else, for whatever f****** reason that is, and now that I’m in college, jobless, without any ounce of talent, have to stick through this until I can somehow get into the degree I’m pursuing to make some sort of difference in the world (but surprise surprise, humans s*** so it’s not like having a biology degree is matter in the next 20 to 30 years even if I somehow contribute to making a change). Its gotten so bad that if I do even mediocre on any test, quiz, or even assignment I have suicidal thoughts. I’m so terrified of doing bad that I show up an hour before every class. I’ve been through every thought process and mental health support method I can think of and I’m still like this. I know its stupid and I know that doing anything to myself wouldn’t change anything, but I still end up feeling like this over the smallest inconvenience when it comes to my educational career. This is the first time I’m saying this anywhere, and yet it doesn’t even matter, because I’m going to wake up tomorrow and put myself through the exact same thing I’ve been doing for the past 18 years of my life. I can’t even say that school itself is the problem, waking up and existing feels like something I HAVE to do, nothing feels like something I can do for myself anymore. The things I enjoyed are just something I do to give myself an ounce of serotonin so that I can go back to doing work later. College is fun.

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I want to have s** with underage girls, the younger the better, my erect manhood would enter the girls C***, I would begin to take them very f****** hard with my p****, I want them to scream for their mother’s then I will put my p**** into her mouth and throat f*** the girl, then m********* in the girls face, which would be covered with my f****** come, then I will take the girl from behind, I will get my sister, and the girl will lick out my sister’s C***, so I can f*** my sister next.

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Sister Marie Howorth had no right to ask me private questions about father’s death. The Toronto Catholic District School Board has verified this with me. To quote the TCDSB, “If you did not disclose to her that your father died, she should not have asked.” The TCDSB also verified that Sister Marie Howorth should not have asked me ‘prodding’ questions. Especially when she saw I was in distress. At that point, she should have stopped. As for the comment, “You wear a mask”, this was a very harmful comment to say to a student. In today’s climate, making a comment like that to a student would never fly. I feel emotionally abused by Sister Marie Howorth. I’m sick of people glorifying her and talking about how compassionate she was. I simply did not see that side of her. When I asked what the meeting was about that day, Sister Marie Howorth replied, “Oh Just Something.” This answer was an outright lie. Sister Marie asking me to reveal private details about my father’s death was not “just something.” I still feel very violated by the way Sister Marie Howorth treated me. She invaded my privacy and my grief. (Actually I don’t really grieve my father because he called my mother an ugly warthog infront of me when I was 6) I hope God did not let her into Heaven Scott Free! Sister Marie Howorth ruined my last year of high school with her psychological abuse.

F*** You Sister Marie Howorth
F*** You Judy Wright
F*** You Yvonne Kocik
F*** You Former Deputy Director of the MSSB who thought he had a right to force a grief counselling on me when he could have just made a complaint against me to stop. I would never have contacted him in the first f*****’ place! Besides, unlike his late son, I would never steal VCRs from the Honeydale Walmart!!!