There was this girl I met online on a dating website named Jamie. I had been on this site for about a year or so and had not met anyone that really

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There was this girl I met online on a dating website named Jamie. I had been on this site for about a year or so and had not met anyone that really interested me or that I felt I could see myself lasting with for a long time. I joined this site in the hope of finding someone I could love and would love me as much as I loved her. I grew up as a large fellow and was the only Virgin out of my friends. I grew up in a small time town and never really met anyone I was interested in dating who was single. Some of the kids at my Highschool thought I was gay simply because I did not go after girls like most of my most regular friends.

So long story short I was lonely. I spent time online looking for a girl and never really had any luck until I met Jamie. We talked and talked and talked and slowly I fell in love with her. Real love that I had been waiting to find for years, not that fake highschool drama crap. So I was on top of the world and eventually told her about 2 months after we had met. I put everything on the line and told her how I felt. She was silent for a moment and then typed back that she Did not know what to think. She had been in a relationship where her BF had been aweful to her and hurt her nearly killing her. She told me that she was not shooting me down but she wanted to take it slow and meet me in person first.She said that I was the nicest guy she had ever met and that she did have feelings for me but was confused and needed time. I understood even though i was hurt a bit by the news but I was willing to wait for her. About a month passed and one day she went silent. I tried FB messaging her, Calling her phone, anything I could think to get in contact with her I tried. I panicked a few weeks after her going quiet and I messaged the hell out of her telling her I was scared of losing her and that I still loved her and I wanted to be happy with her. Well the next morning I found out she deleted her FB page, steam account, and even blocked my phonenumber.

I’m writing this simply because I just needed to tell someone at 12:17 in the morning that I fell in love for the first time with a girl named Jamie and lost her without knowing anything that happened at first. I miss her so much and I just want to be happy with her and I know I will never know what will happen to her or why she left me by myself.

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