I think I wanna kill myself but I feel like I have no reason to do such a thing. My life is good, my family loves me and I have a good social life while also handling school but I don’t wanna live. Like I’m scared of the future I guess. My family doesn’t even have pressure on me for the future but I don’t know what I wanna do with my life. Im scared I’m gonna end up like those homeless men on the street begging for money or I might be a druggie passed on the sidewalk. I would rather die by a murder or hire a hit man because think about it, your family wouldn’t know you were suicidal plus it’s a cool way to leave the earth. Also my family would never think it was their fault I killed myself