September 2nd will mark the 200th day since my girlfriend last gave me head. when we first got together over a year ago I asked her if she gave head and she said yes, since then she’s only done it maybe 10 times and only once did she offer it without me asking. I tried explaining to her how it hurts my feelings and makes me feel like she thinks I’m ugly or doesn’t like me. She got super pissed off then told me that she has TMJ and cant. I haven’t brought it up since. But she constantly eats huge carrots, apples and cashews and never complains about any pain. Additionally she always asks me to go down on her, usually about 3-4 times a week. (And I do because she likes it and it makes me happy to know that she’s happy). What do I do? it kind of hurts me that she knows that this kind of eats at me but she hasn’t said anything about it in 200 days. My birthday & our anniversary were last month, I half-heartedly hoped that she would offer it for my birthday, but we didn’t even have s**, it was very clear that she hasn’t even though about this topic in months.

(to be clear this isn’t me asking “how do I force my gf to go down on me” because I’m sure if I asked a bunch and threw a fit she would, but I don’t want s***** favors that come from “obligation” or guilt, or compromise. I’m asking “how do I forget about it and not let it bother me all the time?” I cant talk to ANYONE about it because if I talk to her it will cause a whole scene and she will make me feel bad for my own emotions and I cant talk to anyone else about it because “holy s*** how embarrassing, your own girlfriend that you live with and do so much for doesn’t go down on you? My girlfriend does it for me all the time” I feel so trapped and helpless with my own thoughts. How do I forget and move on.