I just wanted to say that I have to stop and in order to stop, I have to disappear. I contacted you again, panicked, deleted it and promptly deleted my account. I’m losing my mind, here. She’s your girlfriend and I’m in no position to be jealous of a PICTURE for flying f***’s sake. I have to force you out of my brain and this means that I can’t sift through Reddit or this site or craigslist or your social media accounts like a crazy f****** stalker, just trying to find some piece of you. You are not mine and you never have been and you probably only messed with me out of boredom last year. That’s what’s so humiliating about all my blasted “feelings”…worse case scenario, it was all pretend and you and your friends laughed at my messages to you. The thought of it makes me sick. Best case, you meant it when you said you cared for me. But either way, this has to stop or I’ll embarrass myself horribly. More than I already have and I definitely have.
