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i love my dad as a dad but as a human being? i f****** hate him. not only did he abuse my mom mentally, emotionally, and physically, he also manipulated my siblings and me into thinking my mom was the worst person on the whole f****** planet. and i didnt notice it untillll after he passed smh. and theres a s*** ton of stuff that ive just found outtt after he passed. like what? hmm he lied about everything he told us. or im not even sure atp. but anyways, that f****** a****** cheated on my mother but was telling us that she was cheating on him to get on his side (we were told this growing up ever since arounddd the age of 5??) and its f****** pathetic dont you think?? and i never noticed until now but the whole damn time when hed always ask us who wed go with if he and mom ever split, he was tryna guilt trip us and make us feel bad for him so we could go with him when that time came like bruh wtf what kind of parent would do thatttt. and my dumbass believed every single bit, but i believed that my mom is still my mom and i still very much loved her. but all the s*** he was telling me was getting to me to the point where i had to tell my ‘besties’ at the time cus it was just too much. i was bawling my eyes out going ‘i feel so bad for dad, moms cheating, dad always does everything but mom does nothing’ blah blah f*** that s***. anyways ig one of them told their mom and my mom eventually heard. when she did, she confronted me and ill never forget that night. she waited until everyone was asleep and brought me out to the living room. and she played boys over flowers (go watch it, its a good kdrama, love you gu jun pyo lol) so no one would hear us talking. and then she asked me if dad said any bad stuff about her. and i was very conflicted cus i loved them both very much. but i lied cus i didnt wanna hurt her and i was scared dad would find out that i talked lol. mom ofc saw thru it and told me to tell the truth. and thenn everything just came crashing down and i couldnt hold it in any longer so i told her everything. it felt so good yet it hurt so bad cus i could see how much mom was hurt. smh its making me tear up lmfao. she then told me that all of it was bs. instead, it was dad that was cheating the whole time. with multiple women. before and during their marriage. she then told me about how dad gave her i begged her not to tell anyone bcs i didnt want dad finding out that mom now knew, let alone the fact that im the one who ratted him out. so i had mom promise me she wouldnt tell anyone so she did.

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I was a church organist and pianist for Sunday School departments on Sunday morning from the time I was 12 years old ….. Every morning I would come in the back door and go up the flight of stairs to where the Sunday School rooms were out to play the piano for them and one day we had a new quad director his first year in college… He was 17 I liked him okay but I certainly wasn’t in love with him and I had no desire to touch him in any way but after about 2 months he started meeting me at the stairway going up and started rubbing my d*** with the back of his hand making it hard extremely hard and erect well he continued to talk to me I tried to back up and he followed me continuing to rub my d*** so the first time I said oh I have to go to the restroom so I went to the restroom I beat it off and went back up the hallway he was not there discontinued every Sunday for about 6 months after the first time I decided I would force my way past him and he became very angry that I forced to my way past him the next week he wasn’t there and all of a sudden he was there the next week and still persisted on rubbing my d*** with the back of his hand to make it hard while he talked to me normally again I have to go to the restroom and beat it off before I went to the Sunday School the following Sunday I decided I was not going to beat it off anymore because I got too hot so I went to the Sunday school class with my d*** on hard which everyone could see so finally I just did not care anymore whether they saw it or not and then I noticed all of the other boys dicks getting hard and the Sunday school class so when I went back to my own Sunday school class after playing for four other departments I got back in time just to go into my class the teacher was not there it was the voice class that had seven boys in it I made the eighth one as we were sitting in there they began to rub their dicks and then they took their dicks out and all started m*********** after a while of silence and m*********** my d*** was very hard but I did not take it out they won by one began to have o***** and one boy took my hand and put it on his d*** to finish his d*** and I did he had the best o***** of all his legs shot out and he was the loudest when he went into o***** I was afraid the teacher would come in but no teacher ever came in but then they had a huge mess to clean up all of the e********** so I had to go to the restroom and bring back paper to clean them up they all sat there wiping their dicks and cleaning off the e********** that had shot everywhere. Then about 6 months later after having my d*** rubbed two or three times a month I had stopped m*********** it I would just go with the hard d*** I was asked to be organized of the church because they had heard me playing well everything went fine for the first 3 months he stopped rubbing my d*** because I started going into another door then of course he was the car director so he started coming over to where I went into the auditorium and began taking his two fingers and gently edging my d*** as I was preparing to go out I did not want to start an argument I did not want to make a scene of course he knew that and the first time I went out with the hard d*** to the Oregon to play and then the next week I decided I could not go out there with hard d*** but he did not rub it that week the next week he rubbed me just enough to make it rock hard so I went out to the Oregon and I began to play and then after I was finished the choir came in and I was as I was sitting there listening to the pastor talk to the congregation my d*** began to throb and I had o***** right there in front of the entire congregation my head flew back my legs shut up and the organ made sounds but I couldn’t stop it I couldn’t control it and I was in o***** it seemed like forever and my d*** was throbbing so hard and I was 14 then after church the pastor wanted to know what happened I said oh nothing then he said I needed to take care of all of that before I went out to play I said but the boys come into the restroom and harass me I want to see my d*** he said he would take care of that so he put a lock on the door so I could go in and m********* before church that work for a while until I saw a boy that I really wanted to be with he opened the door to his restroom area and wanted me to come in and s*** his d*** I loved him so much I did not want to disappoint him so I went in and held his d*** and just looked at him and slowly manipulated his d*** and he ejaculated everywhere I thought he would then be my friend forever but he was never there again
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