i love my dad as a dad but as a human being? i f****** hate him. not only did he abuse my mom mentally, emotionally, and physically, he also manipulated my siblings and me into thinking my mom was the worst person on the whole f****** planet. and i didnt notice it untillll after he passed smh. and theres a s*** ton of stuff that ive just found outtt after he passed. like what? hmm he lied about everything he told us. or im not even sure atp. but anyways, that f****** a****** cheated on my mother but was telling us that she was cheating on him to get on his side (we were told this growing up ever since arounddd the age of 5??) and its f****** pathetic dont you think?? and i never noticed until now but the whole damn time when hed always ask us who wed go with if he and mom ever split, he was tryna guilt trip us and make us feel bad for him so we could go with him when that time came like bruh wtf what kind of parent would do thatttt. and my dumbass believed every single bit, but i believed that my mom is still my mom and i still very much loved her. but all the s*** he was telling me was getting to me to the point where i had to tell my ‘besties’ at the time cus it was just too much. i was bawling my eyes out going ‘i feel so bad for dad, moms cheating, dad always does everything but mom does nothing’ blah blah f*** that s***. anyways ig one of them told their mom and my mom eventually heard. when she did, she confronted me and ill never forget that night. she waited until everyone was asleep and brought me out to the living room. and she played boys over flowers (go watch it, its a good kdrama, love you gu jun pyo lol) so no one would hear us talking. and then she asked me if dad said any bad stuff about her. and i was very conflicted cus i loved them both very much. but i lied cus i didnt wanna hurt her and i was scared dad would find out that i talked lol. mom ofc saw thru it and told me to tell the truth. and thenn everything just came crashing down and i couldnt hold it in any longer so i told her everything. it felt so good yet it hurt so bad cus i could see how much mom was hurt. smh its making me tear up lmfao. she then told me that all of it was bs. instead, it was dad that was cheating the whole time. with multiple women. before and during their marriage. she then told me about how dad gave her i begged her not to tell anyone bcs i didnt want dad finding out that mom now knew, let alone the fact that im the one who ratted him out. so i had mom promise me she wouldnt tell anyone so she did.
