im sick of having s** with my partner
they claim to be a dominant figure in our relationship yet they barely want to interact with me outside of this never ending stream of “teasing” which mostly consists of fondling me roughly and then going “hehee” and changing the subject and ignoring any requests to actually have s**. i feel so disgusting they tell me all the time how im attravtive and they love my body and cant wait to do things to me but then it just never happens. i lay there dressed for the occasion after being told again and again that we’re going to f*** and then just have to undress out of all of it and take off my gear and get into normal clothes while hearing “but we can play tomorrow!!”
it just hurts to be told and promised with such enthusiasm and then every time just. disappointed. i lose sleep over this. i get up very early for work and they always insist and push it baxk so s** wont happen until late at night if it happens at all, so sometimes i just miss huge chunks of sleep (4-6 hours) becauee im f****** goping that maybe i’ll get to be intimate with my partner finally and then it doesnt jappen and i just go to sleep.
i want. to die.
