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!! TW GROOMING & PEDOPHILIA, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE !!

people always warn you about men on the internet. but they never warn you about the women.

i’ve been groomed by two women, and i feel absolutely sick over it. both of these women happened within two years of each other. both of these women were my “best friends.” both said i acted “mature for my age.” both were the people i was closest to at the time, the people i confided my worst fears and secrets to. they both took advantage of me, and i never even realised it. i was so stupid.

the first woman was nineteen, and i was 12. i thought i was cool for having an older girlfriend, i thought it was perfectly fine because i was mature for my age and i looked a little older (at least fifteen. that’s still an issue). she was always kind to me, so i never really saw a problem with our relationship, until my second experience. that’s how i realised i was groomed.

the second woman to groom me fucked me up mentally. i was 14 at that stage, and she was practically 18. to this day she denies she ever groomed me. i was not her only victim, but i was the first. she also dated another 15 year old, and then when she turned 18, she dated a 14 year old and had romantic relations with a 16 year old.

this woman was a nightmare. she constantly guilt tripped me, and acted suicidal, when i wasn’t on my phone for five minutes. FIVE MINUTES. i’m not over-exaggerating. she blew up my phone with messages of her saying things like “why dont you love me, am i not enough” , “i’m in the hospital now” , and suicidal messages. it got to the point that my ex was dragged into it, and he told me i had to give her more attention. he defended her insane actions??

she constantly made me feel like i owed her something. like i had to show her how wonderful she was, or she would kill herself. she said s***** things about me to other minors, and even tried to get me to have p******** with her and another girl (not sure of her age, but she was older than me by a few years at least). any time i tried to confront her about grooming me, she turned it all around and made it seem like it was normal. and i did believe her for a while. the only other person who made me see the issues at hand was a girl i dated after i tried to end any romantic relations with the adult woman. i can’t believe i couldn’t see the issues myself.

i was so hurt by this woman. we met after she pulled something really horrible with another person i unfortunately had an unpleasant experience with, and took advantage of my vulnerability to get close to me. and then, immediately started flirting with me. i feel so sick whenever someone mentions her name, and i still feel like all of this was my fault. did i lead her on too much??

getting rid of her was so hard. she made you feel like she would always be there for you, she encouraged you to open up about stuff and then took advantage of your vulnerability. she’s absolutely toxic. any time i tried to unfriend her, she would make me feel bad about it. at one stage, i tried to reach out to her so we could be FRIENDS and forget everything that happened (why did i do that????) but of course, that ended in disaster. people began to realise she was a groomer, and i was so utterly overwhelmed by the amount of people trying to get information about my experience with her. people talked about me as if they knew what i felt, and it made me so mad. they didn’t even know the half of it. i’m just so grateful she’s out of my life now, and i really hope we never cross paths again. ever.

but anyway, f*** you. both of you. mia and muzna. you make me feel dirty and disgusting and i honestly hope you both f*** up some day and are sent to jail. i don’t want any other minors to ever even cross paths with you both. you ruined me.

New Confession

I was a church organist and pianist for Sunday School departments on Sunday morning from the time I was 12 years old ….. Every morning I would come in the back door and go up the flight of stairs to where the Sunday School rooms were out to play the piano for them and one day we had a new quad director his first year in college… He was 17 I liked him okay but I certainly wasn’t in love with him and I had no desire to touch him in any way but after about 2 months he started meeting me at the stairway going up and started rubbing my d*** with the back of his hand making it hard extremely hard and erect well he continued to talk to me I tried to back up and he followed me continuing to rub my d*** so the first time I said oh I have to go to the restroom so I went to the restroom I beat it off and went back up the hallway he was not there discontinued every Sunday for about 6 months after the first time I decided I would force my way past him and he became very angry that I forced to my way past him the next week he wasn’t there and all of a sudden he was there the next week and still persisted on rubbing my d*** with the back of his hand to make it hard while he talked to me normally again I have to go to the restroom and beat it off before I went to the Sunday School the following Sunday I decided I was not going to beat it off anymore because I got too hot so I went to the Sunday school class with my d*** on hard which everyone could see so finally I just did not care anymore whether they saw it or not and then I noticed all of the other boys dicks getting hard and the Sunday school class so when I went back to my own Sunday school class after playing for four other departments I got back in time just to go into my class the teacher was not there it was the voice class that had seven boys in it I made the eighth one as we were sitting in there they began to rub their dicks and then they took their dicks out and all started m*********** after a while of silence and m*********** my d*** was very hard but I did not take it out they won by one began to have o***** and one boy took my hand and put it on his d*** to finish his d*** and I did he had the best o***** of all his legs shot out and he was the loudest when he went into o***** I was afraid the teacher would come in but no teacher ever came in but then they had a huge mess to clean up all of the e********** so I had to go to the restroom and bring back paper to clean them up they all sat there wiping their dicks and cleaning off the e********** that had shot everywhere. Then about 6 months later after having my d*** rubbed two or three times a month I had stopped m*********** it I would just go with the hard d*** I was asked to be organized of the church because they had heard me playing well everything went fine for the first 3 months he stopped rubbing my d*** because I started going into another door then of course he was the car director so he started coming over to where I went into the auditorium and began taking his two fingers and gently edging my d*** as I was preparing to go out I did not want to start an argument I did not want to make a scene of course he knew that and the first time I went out with the hard d*** to the Oregon to play and then the next week I decided I could not go out there with hard d*** but he did not rub it that week the next week he rubbed me just enough to make it rock hard so I went out to the Oregon and I began to play and then after I was finished the choir came in and I was as I was sitting there listening to the pastor talk to the congregation my d*** began to throb and I had o***** right there in front of the entire congregation my head flew back my legs shut up and the organ made sounds but I couldn’t stop it I couldn’t control it and I was in o***** it seemed like forever and my d*** was throbbing so hard and I was 14 then after church the pastor wanted to know what happened I said oh nothing then he said I needed to take care of all of that before I went out to play I said but the boys come into the restroom and harass me I want to see my d*** he said he would take care of that so he put a lock on the door so I could go in and m********* before church that work for a while until I saw a boy that I really wanted to be with he opened the door to his restroom area and wanted me to come in and s*** his d*** I loved him so much I did not want to disappoint him so I went in and held his d*** and just looked at him and slowly manipulated his d*** and he ejaculated everywhere I thought he would then be my friend forever but he was never there again
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