I’m not okay. I’m a poly trans man. My current partner abuses me and forces me to say it’s my fault because I pushed them to it. My cis ex (who’s also mildly abused me) cheated on me and is trying to get back with me, but treats me like a girl. I’ve been in love with someone (that I assume is a cis man) for over a year but I know he hates me for being trans because he never talked to me again once I told him. He’s too good for someone like me anyways. I’m a little unhinged. I want to escape, and I want a good, strong partner that makes me feel safe, but I don’t think I’m good enough for that. I feel worthless and empty. I just want to feel like someone actually loves me. I’m touch starved. Sometimes I fantasize about being kidnapped just to feel wanted.