I always dreamed and I still dream about being a famous singer. I do sing. I go to this singing group where only 11 of us are. we were all chosen by the teacher. We’re very good friends, and when I listened to one of them when she sang(we were alone with the teacher) she signed the songs perfectly. She hits the high tones, she makes them soft, strong and everything. then I realized I don’t have a chance as a singer. She goes to private singing lessons. I don’t. My family doesn’t have money for that. I try to self-train, but how can I do that? I don’t have piano skills to warm up, I don’t know techniques, I can’t sing PERFECT like everyone can in the group. I want to have lessons and I want to know techniques so I can improve singing. I just can’t take it seriously when I want to! Once I heard how she sang two hardest songs ever, I saw it: I can’t have that kid of voice that can be really amazing at singing. I will never be able to sing as a professional singer. I still try to make my voice softer when I sing, I try to give everything out but I simply can’t. I now know I am not a great singer as everyone thinks I am. I feel down and I feel like I’ve lost…

I wrote this because I needed to write myself down. How I feel and what do I think… I didn’t want to talk to anyone about this. I just wanted to confess somehow. This made me feel better now. I don’t sing well-that is the result. I think that I won’t sing perfect ever.