I’m done. I try to be a good friend, I really do. But I’m sure everyone that knows me just hates me. Why should I even bother trying to be nice if they’re all just going to dislike me in the end? I might as well have them all dislike me at the beginning so I don’t have to try.
They don’t get what I have. They don’t know how to deal with people like me. They’re angry because I’m quiet and I don’t want them to see me cry. Why the f*** should I bother with people who can’t accept me for what I am or try to support me when I have something they don’t that can be helped? I can’t help myself, and I’m to scared to seek help. But they don’t understand how hard it is to keep up. I’m just a worthless pile of s***.