Its been 2+ years.
I am happy in a new relationship.
I want to marry them. My whole life revolves around them and I cant imagine a life without them.
Yet i still go and stalk your social media. I read your bio to see if you finally left me a message. I see if your account is finally public. I see the comments the posts wondering if you fojnd someone new. More importantly i wanna know if you are finally happy.
I ask myself why cant i let go but ik why i cant.
To you i was a rebound. You abused me. It wasnt fun for me.
You pushed me to do unthinkable things while you were still in love with your ex.
So maybe, i cant let you go because i come back to check if you are leaving messages for me or for her.
If the lyrics in your bio are about me or are they about her.
Do you care? Does me leaving you count as a heart break?
Why did you lie to me? Why do you still haunt me? Why did you abuse me?
Every story of abuse is now a TW.
I hate it. I dont like things this way.
I hope youd reach out. Just so i know it counted as a heartbreak for you too and not just for me….
Reach out so i can put you down again. So i can give you the pain you gave me everytime i fell prey to your abuse.
So i can tell you i m happy. Ive achieved all i wanted. Ive found a man i deserve. A man who deserves me.
Reach out so i can break you into pieces like you did every night that i saw your anger.
Let me move on. Show me your misery.
