My Mom has a serious perspective about chastity and lesbians/attraction between women to women. She is an understanding person to be honest, she have high intuition and seemed to have difficulty on accepting what she hates about me. She would blurt out suddenly that lesbian are bad to their family, touching yourself will only ruin your body, watching p*** as a female is degrading for our reputation, a gay person tend to love his family dearly but a lesbian would not.

In fact, I learned to finger myself when I was 8 years old. I discovered my c*** was sensitive when I was 11. I learned how to hide my e***** manga that I read. When I was young, I though that loving a female is fine and acceptable since women are the one who is softened hurt in a relationship and loved more. I watched lesbian p*** but never felt attracted in real life. However, it felt only fine to have a relationship between two same gender.

I guess fate give you a daughter that will challenges your perspective and fate give me a challenge if I should be proud on what I’m or protect your love for me as your only child.

After all, my Mom felt disgusted everytime she said it. She have a feeling that she won’t accept.