I make people feel as bad as they make me feel! If they dehumanize me – I dehumanize them. A man tried to break my nose. I broke his hand. My mother doesnt think she had any talents – she made me pay all my life. When she gives praise ato others, I scream my praise louder. Recently, a guy called me ugly from britain – and I told her — I was sitting across from her glowing and she said “ugly”. I couldnt believe it – but she demeaned me all the time. I had a panic attack because I couldnt believe she wpuld say that. Well today she tried to make me small again and I wanted her to be demeaned. I called her fat. I said she had a huge stomach and she should lose weight. I went on amd on until I made her cry. Whenever I am
Abused the only way I can stop myself from processing it is abuse the person back.
I should be more humble when it comes to her age, but I hate how she forsme.
She doesnt like me. But she always said I never liked her as a guilt move.
I cant wait until I move again.
I used to feel bad when I got people back. Now I dont feel nothing.