it’s a mixed feeling in which i can’t find an exact term to categorize it with. i just found that i am one of the c** laude for our batch of graduates, and i don’t have anyone to share it with. my family wouldn’t find it good or something just “news” but just trivial. i can’t even share it with friends bcs i’m afraid of their reactions. i’m happy yes, but also confused and i just don’t know what to do, why am i like this. why am i alone, i hope i am not the only one…bcs it might hurt so badly to the point that i can’t take it anymore