My big brother has ADHD, Tourettes Syndrome and Asperger Syndrome. He lives in a seperate house with specialists who take care of him. He struggles alot, and often sends the rest of the family emails to express his feelings.
One time I got an email where he explained (according to him) how much of a crappy brother he had been to me in the past, and how the family was the only thing keeping him from commiting suicide. But, further down, he said it was only a matter of time before he would do it. This scares me so much up to this day (he’s still alive). Sometimes when I haven’t seen him in a while, I start to think ‘what if he commited suicide and he’s dead now?’ and then I start to think about how I’ll never get to see him again and stuff like that, which ends up in me crying like crazy.
Yes, I know, kind of a weird confession, but I really just needed to get this off my chest, because it’s been bothering me so much and I’m scared to tell my parents…