i was 4 months clean from self harm, now i have to start all over again. it f****** kills me that i ruined my progress. i was doing so f****** good at not self harming. i just need a break, i feel like i have no control over my life. im f****** drowning and i cant tell anyone because then im just “attention seeking”. im begging for f****** help, someone please help me before i get dragged down even deeper.