My ex whos younger than me forced me to read p0rn of real people like fanfictions people made of real people. My ex threatened suicide constantly. I had to read them. I was also forced to send p0rn of a more normal kind to a friend who talked about m*********** to me all the time. That friend sent me p0rn that traumatized me and fucked with my head, hypnotization s***. I now live in fear of both of them and its a secret i’ve been keeping for so long. I dont know whos in the wrong and i wanna know so bad but I cant just ask that to people. I had no choice. With my ex they were gonna kill themselves and with that friend I was just trying to imitate them to try and avoid them doing something bad to themselves or me. That friend had the power to kill me and was going to. I was just trying to avoid dying and i was trying to avoid being a murderer by not making my at the time S/O happy.